Beginning the Mid Year

I find myself today in a place I didn't think I would be again.   My connection to the magical world had drifted over the past two years. I felt myself falling into a lack of magic. I still honored the phases and tried to be outdoors my I was not aware just how much my regular ritual was missing from my life. 

Photo Credit - Renee Sosanna Olson


I participated in Rite of her Sacred Fires this past full moon and found myself energized and ready to take on the world. Something I had not felt in a quite a while. I was in a living situation that prevented me from participating in ritual regularly. Now back in my space down by the river, I'm able to express those feelings again. 

I've been working on my health. Focusing more on healing through a holistic approach. Spending time each morning in meditation and opening my mind to connect with the energies of our world. I have started reconnecting with Hecate as I felt our relationship was strained.  She was not gone. She was waiting for me to catch up. I was close to her, close enough to feel the delicate touch of her robes as they feathered around her in the moonlight, but still, far.

Photo Credit - Renee Sosanna Olson


I spent a lot of time thinking about where I wanted to go.  I felt myself moving towards atheism in my belief that we were not created by intelligent design but more so by an ever changing natural environment around us.  The waters of world, too, ebb and flow with the energies that are our goddess.  I took a break from some commitments that I had related to Hecate and I believe that break actually allowed me to reconnect with her.  It became less of a chore and returned to the wonderful connection I had prior.



I've begun work on my dream of an Oracle deck for Hecate, that is 10 years in the making. I'm focused now with a fury that resembles Brimo and a curiosity that call to Hecate as no other. This re-dedication of sorts has opened my eyes to the places in my practices where I allowed others to dictate my process. I have returned to the point where I feel most comfortable and am now able to incorporate my daily practice back with ease and grace.

As the this month moves forward and I continue with this exploration I intend to focus more on my dedication to learn more and share that information far and wide. I plan to add more content on By Her Fires - my blog dedicate specifically to Hecate and her mysteries.

As we move throughout the remainder of this year, I pledge to spend more time focusing on my studies and removing those things that do not bring me joy.  For a long time, I thought it was the work related to the goddess that was causing issues.  I know now, it was not. I look forward to this new approach to magic and witchcraft.  And while some would still call me an atheist as, I do not believe in the literal interpretations of gods and goddesses I do believe in the energy that surrounds them. I do believe in the growing process one takes by adopting a set of life virtues and living in those virtues.  Be them related to a god or a pomegranate.

Photo Credit - Renee Sosanna Olson


When I was a child I attended a southern baptist church and they had an altar at the front with the words, "Do this in remembrance of me". (1 Corinthians 11:23-25) I used to wonder what it meant. I believe I know now. While not following this specific doctrine, I can see how using a reminder that we should be good to each other makes sense. And if it takes some words on an altar, writing on a box, lighting a candle daily, do what is good and what brings you joy in remembrance of the thing that most inspires you. This can be inside or outside a religious context. 

Photo Credit - Renee Sosanna Olson


The idea here, is to be who you are, while spreading some understanding around the world. I purposely did not say spreading positive vibes.  Looking around at the world, we know that things are just not positive right now. We are struggling in the United States as a nation. We're struggling as a people unable to come together due to racial divides.  Our world is suffering from sea to sea and our mother earth is dying. There is so much negative and I too, want to say "Be Positive!".   Instead, I ask you to be understanding. Be caring. Be compassion.  Be courageous. Be the change you want to see in this world.

I'm starting today.  Can you?




Love Signs - Your Perfect Match is in the Stars - A Review

Today I'm reviewing  Love Signs - Your Perfect Match is in the Starts by Elaine Dawn.


Photo Credit - Renee Sosanna Olson



Author Links - Link
Amazon Book Link
Good Reads Book Link
Good Reads Author Link
My Good Reads Profile
My Facebook Page


Generally I like to start out with a disclaimer. I am an contemporary witch.  I look for the connection between magic and science without the need to search for a creator. I receive no compensation for these reviews and all my links are standard Amazon links and not affiliate links. I am a practicing photo reader and have spent the last 16 years honing my craft.  I offer personal readings by request and have a strong online history that boasts nearly 400,000 views.

Photo Credit - Renee Sosanna Olson


I'll begin with a review of the physical book.  This book is a great size to toss into a bag or a backpack for a quick meet up with friends at a coffee shop.  The cover is vibrant and though my copy didn't have a dust jacket, I found the hand feel to be pretty good.  It isn't too heavy or cumbersome and the raised lettering on the title give it an expensive feel. The author provides us with a good index as one would expect in this type of book.  We are also gifted with a compatibility test at the onset getting you right into the mood to compare and contrast the ins and outs of love in the zodiac.

Photo Credit - Renee Sosanna Olson


Each chapter is dedicated to a single sign of the zodiac.  Each provides a detailed overview of the current sign including some wonderful attributes and of course those little nuances of the signs that make them a bit of a challenge to deal with.  The main portion of each chapter is dedicated to describing the relationship with each sign.


Photo Credit - Renee Sosanna Olson


In comparing a couple of my old relationships and I can say that the author is spot on with the comparisons.  I have never found a Virgo that I didn't have some sort of connection to and my current love is no exception. This book described our last date to perfection as though the author were observing from across the room.

Overall a really great book to have a cup of coffee with a companion or just something to share with friends.  I highly recommend.



Friendship Signs - Your Perfect Match(es) Are in the Stars - A Review

Today I'm reviewing  Friendship Signs - Your Perfect Match(es) are in the Starts by Brianne Hogan.


Photo Credit - Renee Sosanna Olson



Author Links - Link
Amazon Book Link
Amazon Author Link
Good Reads Book Link
Good Reads Author Link
My Good Reads Profile
My Facebook Page

Release date - May 14, 2019

Generally I like to start out with a disclaimer. I am an contemporary witch.  I look for the connection between magic and science without the need to search for a creator. I receive no compensation for these reviews and all my links are standard Amazon links and not affiliate links. I am a practicing photo reader and have spent the last 16 years honing my craft.  I offer personal readings by request and have a strong online history that boasts nearly 400,000 views.


I'm going to start with a review of the physical book.  Overall this is a nice sized book.  I like that I could easily toss this into a purse or backpack. I received a hard cover to review.  It did not have a dust jacket but the cover is vibrant and had a formed spine and raised lettering for the title.  The book is printed with blue ink and the pages are smooth to the touch.  Over all a great book to hold in your hands.  The book includes a friendship compatibility test at the beginning and and offers a decent sized index in the back.

Photo Credit - Renee Sosanna Olson


Each sign is listed in the book with a sign by sign comparison. I noticed quickly how the author switched pronouns based on which sign they were discussing.  Pisces and Virgo was female for example and Leo and Libra are male.  While this is a small thing, I quickly went to the release date on the book and saw that it was this year.  I would love to see authors start using gender-less pronouns when possible.  Because we know that signs apply across the board to all people, using they and them would be perfectly acceptable in this book.  That being said over all it is a really well written book.

Each chapter is divided by the signs with a brief description of each sign.  Virgo as the perfectionist and the doer and Pisces as the dreamer and the healer, for example.  The author describes each signs quirks and preferences before offering a compatibility chart that outlines how each sign directly interacts.  I found the piece on Aquarius and Pisces to be quite accurate.

Pisces and AquariusEach sign's inherent uniqueness and love for deep spiritual discussions will help cement the friends ship between Pisces and Aquarius.  The both admin and accept the others' eccentricities and the joy working together on charity projects.


In comparing the descriptions for Pisces and Virgo vs. the one for Virgo and Pisces the author could have just copied them over however there is a subtle difference for each sign.  The descriptions are on point, in my opinion and offer a unique insight into not only revealing what you already knew about your best friend, but also a look at opening doors and becoming more compatible with our celestial counterparts.



Overall this is a great book for the beginner and the seasoned HUMAN, yes, I said human here as we already know that non-magical people are the biggest consumers of this type of content.  Its an easy read and a great way to spend the afternoon with a friend, comparing and contrasting what the stars have to say about our BFFs.







10 Minute Crystal Ball - Tips for your Inner Powers - A Review

Today I'm reviewing 10 Minute Crystal Ball - Easy Tips for Developing Harness Your Inner  Wisdom and Psychic Powers by Skye Alexander.

Cover



Author Links - Link
Amazon Book Link
Amazon Author Link
Good Reads Book Link
Good Reads Author Link
My Good Reads Profile
My Facebook Page

Release Date: May 14, 2019
ISBN: 9781592338825


Generally I like to start out with a disclaimer. I am an contemporary witch.  I look for the connection between magic and science without the need to search for a creator. I receive no compensation for these reviews and all my links are standard Amazon links and not affiliate links. I am a practicing photo reader and have spent the last 16 years honing my craft.  I offer personal readings by request and have a strong online history that boasts nearly 400,000 views.


Starting with a review of the physical book, I will say this is a well bound book. I received a hard copy to review without a dust jacket.  The images are more like clip art in the book vs. illustrations and have a lean towards the color gold.  I like the simplicity and the directness of the images and appreciate the color scheme.  It includes a short but directed index as well as a list of resources at the end which in my opinion are key to any decent reference book.

Photo Credit - Renee Sosanna Olson
Photo Source - 10 Minute Crystal Ball


The Author begins with a brief introduction into what the reader can glean from the text and direction on the exact process for attaining the most benefit from the book.  The book is divided into sections that address intuition, divination and examining the psychic tool box. One of favorite chapters is the section on our toolbox.  While touching base on the most common divination tools in modern magic, this book added a new one that I have not encountered until now.  Graphology is the art of examining handwriting for a look into the writers temperament, intellectual capacity, vocational potential, heal, relationship needs and more according to the author.   How intriguing!  I was sad to see such a short piece on it but it certainly gave me something to jot down and look up later.  I love it when a book does that!

Photo Credit - Renee Sosanna Olson
Photo Source - 10 Minute Crystal Ball
Photo Credit - Renee Sosanna Olson
Photo Source - 10 Minute Crystal Ball



My next favorite section was the part covering mental telepathy. I have often felt things before they happened or knew someone was going to call before they did.  And yes, I've picked a few good lotto numbers, LOL.  But I digress. Naysayers like to be the first to taunt us and say that if we were "real psychics" we would do X.  I'm quite happy with my current station in life, but back to the book.  The section from pages 136-163, in my opinion, are a great way to work on your psychic abilities. I love this addition to the book and think that others might pay attention here and offer a bit more in the teaching than the preaching.  :)

Overall, I was surprised by the content of the book. I expected a bit more fluff and was pleasantly surprised. I think that novice witches and even seasoned crones will benefit from adding this piece to their magical library.


Photo Credit - Renee Sosanna Olson
Photo Source - 10 Minute Crystal Ball


10 Minute Magic Spells to Harness Your Inner Power - A Review

Today I'm reviewing 10 Minute Magic Spells - Simple Spells & Self-Care Practices to Harness Your Inner Power by Skye Alexander.

Photo Credit - Renee Sosanna Olson



Author Links - Link
Amazon Book Link
Amazon Author Link
Good Reads Book Link
Good Reads Author Link
My Good Reads Profile
My Facebook Page

Release Date: May 9, 2019
ISBN: 9781592338818


Generally I like to start out with a disclaimer. I am an contemporary witch.  I look for the connection between magic and science without the need to search for a creator. I receive no compensation for these reviews and all my links are standard Amazon links and not affiliate links. I am a practicing photo reader and have spent the last 16 years honing my craft.  I offer personal readings by request and have a strong online history that boasts nearly 400,000 views.

Starting with a review of the physical book, I will say this is a well bound book. I received a hard copy to review without a dust jacket.  The images are more like clip art in the book vs. illustrations and have a lean towards the color gold.  I like the simplicity and the directness of the images and appreciate the color scheme.  It includes a short but directed index as well as a list of resources at the end which in my opinion are key to any decent reference book.
Photo Credit - Renee Sosanna Olson
Image Src - 10 Minute Magic Spells
Photo Credit - Renee Sosanna Olson
Image Src - 10 Minute Magic Spells





This book is broken up into sections on not only the tools of the trade but also on specific spells for love, luck and happiness as well as health and well-being.  One of my favorite topics being health and well-being.  The first few chapters, on the surface appear to be quite elementary but I can say that once getting into them, I found them to be be quite deliberate and full of amazing information.  It is rare today to find a book that will try to not only share a spell or two but also provide a look inside the mind of the mystic and show just how magic is created.  Then the cursed references to "dark magic" begin.  Ah well, it can't be all the things, now can it?

I really enjoyed the sections on Mind Over Matter and found the tables provided within quite useful. Even the part on magical ethics was written well and provided a very basic understanding of the ole what goes around comes around take on life.   Part one of the book continues with information on casting circles, working with deities and the like.

Photo Credit - Renee Sosanna Olson
Image Src - 10 Minute Magic Spells



Section two gets into the main part of the book, the magic spells! From using Tarot cards for love to or a talisman for success, this book offers the reader a nice list of spells to choose from.  Personally I like to add my own bit to making magic, but there is nothing wrong with using the words of another witch to get the job done. One way or another, your intention is what finishes that spell work.

Overall a really great book for a beginner and I feel the seasoned witch may like to have this on hand to pass down when the time comes. 


Photo Credit - Renee Sosanna Olson
Image Src - 10 Minute Magic Spells

What Does May Bring Now?

So why do I hate May?  I don't even know.  The minute May 1 rolls in I start to feel dreary and annoyed at the world in general. I start to cry for no reason and become so testy it isn't even funny.  I'm not sure why it happens.  I look back at my past and try to figure it out but still nothing solid comes to mind.

Photo Credit - Renee Sosanna Olson


I know its the month of Mother's Day. Which is a challenge on two fronts.  My strained relationship with my own mother and my adult child.

I spent the day today looking over old posts and see how my partner and I are still being used as fodder for the various anecdotes and stories associated with their childhood.  I guess I shouldn't be surprised at some of the tall tales that I'm reading over there since they are a fiction writer. I think about what could I have done differently.  What, if anything, should I be doing now. It all comes back to a single question.  Does it bring you joy?   The answer is no.  Battling for a relationship isn't where I flourish. I don't do well with having to demand attention from someone. I prefer that someone wants to communicate with me.  They want to hang out or chat.  They want to share their life with me.  I don't want to be an accessory.  To me, I would rather not be included at all than to be tolerated. And at this point, basically I am just that.  A tolerated accessory, to claim the LGBT family title.  I'm worn like a sash in a pageant while the story line is told slightly differently each year depending on the current victimization.


Photo Credit - Renee Sosanna Olson

Then there's my mother. My last discussion with her was being told that I stole money from her account after I did all I could to get her out of dept and healthy. I was shamed into hugging her and try to be a "good girl" a "good daughter" by my aunts. I was doing all the work while she sat in her denial with junk food as a partner and death on her lips. I struggle to even think about what I could say at this point in my life that would be anything other than nasty.  There is nothing left there and I don't think it could ever be salvaged.  While I know that she was a victim of the abuse just as we children were, she was the adult. As her adult child here and now, she still continued to be abusive. Stealing from me. Lying on me.  Being just as vile as he ever was.

Photo Credit - Renee Sosanna Olson

I think the only relationship I really regret not having is the one with one of my younger sisters. I could certainly reach out and of course she like so many other members of my estranged family would welcome me back with open arms.  I just have to leave the past in the past. I have to accept them for being self centered and bigoted and I can come to the picnic.  I have to quiet down my voice and stop calling out relatives who vote Republican or those who clasp their pearls and their bible while their president takes away my families access to care.  I think I miss most of all, having someone to share things with outside my marriage.  I would love to go get my hair done, or have a girls day out.  It is deeply saddening to realize that even if I would suck up my pride and engage again, I would be faking the entire thing and find myself empty.  The fact is they just don't accept me and they don't want to give up the view they have on the world today.  I think that's why it makes me so sad.

Photo Credit - Renee Sosanna Olson
I have a wonderful job and I love my husband who is absolutely amazing.  I recently splurged and bought myself a new (to me) car that I adore. I'm cutting back on quite a few commitments that I have had over the years to help me be able to focus on some new things in my life.  I'm going to try my hand at painting.  Though the very thought terrifies me.

Photo Credit - Renee Sosanna Olson


May reminds me of festivals and vending like I did a few years ago.  It reminds me of the hustle and bustle of  packing boxes and greeting campers deep in the woods of eastern North Carolina.  A place now, where I am no longer welcome.  It surprises me to see the friendships that have grown since I removed myself from that venue. I think the emptiness comes from my own head trying to fully understand my part in this old place while being this new person that I am.

Photo Credit - Elijah Olson

I watch the wind blow through the trees and feel the fresh rain on my face and know that I am not part of that world anymore. I am separate from it and while it is of my own making, it is still has painful as a dagger through my heart.

Each door that has closed around me, has indeed opened another avenue of expression but still I sit at the end of the hall and see those doors.  I see them for what they are. A closed off area of my heart that can no longer open.  The hinges, rusted and the lock nailed shut.  I can see a light just through the keyhole.  I can press my eye against the lock but only see the clouded figures that dance in the distance in this world that I cannot access.



This is my May.  A time of reflection and rehashing.  A time of fires and fury.  A time when I sit apart from so many places I once frequented only to have the door firmly slammed in my face.

My grandmother used to tell me, April Showers bring May Flowers.  My question to the world, and to her if she were still here to hear my plea, what does May bring now?  The flowers are here. Now what?  I don't think I'll ever have an answer to that question.  I do believe it will get better. After all look where I am now. I can write about this and still keep a dry eye.

This May is much different than my previous Mays.  This May seems fresh and raw.  This May is about learning who I am and where I fit in the fabric of life. I do long for those relationships, but I also have to put myself in a position of growth. Where do I want to be in the future.  Who do I want to be?  I'm getting there.  Slowly, but still moving forward at a pace that is steady and comfortable.

Sometimes, simply running in the race is winning.